the last day of summer

and 3 quarters of today left my side

Sunday, November 26, 2006

i've always had it the easier way.
many things were gotten by without too much pain.
even if my world crumbles, i know,
i have been through worse.
i know i have been through the worst.
my persistant to stay with false strength,
has lifted me even higher off ground.
i was on a constant high, i was hooked.
i must have side tracked a little of late.
suddenly the pungency of danger struck, so sharp.
but then again, how could i lose, if i havent even had it.
how could it end, if it couldnt even fucking begin.

---------on a lighter note--------

november 26. 6+am,
i came home and saw this.

it miraculously increased my appetite,
so i cooked, ate, and slumbered off.

just a comparison between 2 years.

some things just do not change??

so, anyway. the pen and paper has been updated.

more: the pen and paper

posted by peenutkew # 10:00 2 comments

Saturday, November 18, 2006

time
-how many times have i wasted on getting wasted.
that frame of time that everything either,
looks abit more beautiful, or nastier.
most times, i choose the former.
it is one choice that exists.
and am i glad, i am in control for once.
drinking too much, maybe but, im not getting too drunk.
i love time. times doing nothing at all.
times doing too many chores at a go.
im not sailing in that flow. no way.
nineteen i will always remain. my limbo.

self
-i can only choose this much.
in the end, i'll most probably throw choices away.
to choose myself.
variety isnt always a good thing.
knowing i might just be able to bite off,
the best of many worlds. i will get carried away.
i will get too haughty to stop.
i will forget modesty. i will forgo moderation.
so, lets not be kind. i better be left alone.

you
-made me wana take 3 steps forward,
to sniff the air beneath your nose.
2 steps backwards,
to watch the crazy world move on its own.
this weird rhythm, and how you tempt.
your strength makes me weak.
and how i wana get even weaker,
just to test and abuse your patience.
i just know, i can play. with you.
i just know i can play dead. play dumb.
and i just know you would play along with me.
come, why dont we. why shouldnt we.
i will keep the pace up, if you promise, not to change.
i dont wana stop, not yet.
i dont wana sit.

posted by peenutkew # 06:17 0 comments

shall we play snap

Saturday, November 11, 2006

this will be a long winded one.
i have been so busy that i'm deprived of chances to
think/rest/consider/plan/write/draw/recover.
my previous weekends were just. impossible.
i need to vend it.

-i thought im the busiest person around, until i met my match.
if my time is crazy, hers is, i dont know. disgusting?

-i am being asked -how are you. once at least. everyday.
my days hastens even more, and i cant recall how or when it started.
in a fashion so quick i could barely recap the details.
maybe i could be spared the details.
maybe the details aint very important.
im tired but not drained. emotions and physics.
my game is to eliminate. right before i start to feel drained.
as much as i play, i hate the game.
addition and subtraction. i detest the latter, but,
that process is inevitable.

-and how are you, you asked.
my days run, in great speed.
secretly i take strolls in between or even concurrently.
you wouldnt know when, i wouldnt tell.
i tire myself out, but i just love it that way.
no time or mind to think too much, just move.
im not slowing down to make decisions.
that will just prompt my worst trait -indecisiveness.
i strive to make sense, not to you but to me.

-i received a proposal to commit. early this week.
i passed.
im talking about my job.

-unknowingly, i compiled a survey for myself.
here's the feedback:
on msn, someone told me -you are a monster.
on my palm, someone spelled S.L.U.T. twice that day.
in my face, someone said -you are so horrible.

-probably i've been running a little too fast.
i need to be tamed. it can be a nice feeling, if i remember correctly.
but no one's up to it.
they either dropped the manual all together and scared me away.
or they gave me up for a better night's sleep.
i dont do invitations but my door has always been left ajar,
you just didnt come close enough,
to realise.

-"i like these 2 girls, peenut. dont screw it up this time."
and overnight, coke became her favourite beverage.

-she replied that she skipped zouk to go home. to make out.
p: so was it with a guy or a girl?
a: i'm not sure.
p: WAT?
a: i think its a girl.
p: wat do u mean?!
a: they usually name beds after girls.

-the most expensive chicken buns i've ever invested in
are not even for my own tummy.
my routine. parked along the double yellow lines.
dash in, take away, gobble up outside zouk.
chop chop. on a normal night, it cost me $1. EACH.
that eventful night, for a pair.
not too bad, i estimated more.
$75, internal injuries not included.

-im picking up speed, join me if you may.
not behind. i hate to lead.
not ahead. its not gonna be your way.
run with me.

posted by peenutkew # 05:37 3 comments

ong

tribute to my other favourite photo-background.
note, i am the foreground, she's the background.

(hahaha)

we were supposed to post a collection of "hip hop" poses,
but i realised that the others are pretty damn amusing too.
well done, ong. you complement the foreground :D

posted by peenutkew # 04:45 2 comments

part 2

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

my favourite pic from the trip.

random shits.

the pool we soaked everyday.

photo credits: photofreek

posted by peenutkew # 19:35 2 comments

says who

Saturday, November 04, 2006

posted by peenutkew # 04:19 0 comments