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Saturday, December 26, 2009

home, brings about all kinds of emotions, and i have been trying extremely hard,
to keep up with her surprises on a daily basis.

tampines feels a load lesser like home than it used to, to me at least.
marine parade feels as sexy as ever, since sixteen years ago.
orchard has gotten quite scary. i dont know how to keep up with her.
i am still trying to feel for pasir ris. but at least i know her arms have always been opened.

there are a few places i realise i will probably never go to again,
a few others i know that i have clearly been banned from.
i am not as angry anymore, not for long at least.
i am not as prideful anymore, partially because i havent a lot left.
i am not less optimistic, because i have seen a lot worse.
i am not without fear, just that i have learnt to live with it.
i am not hopeless, i still have a happy handful of those.

the year is ending, and i am still holding on to my imaginary baton,
looking for someone to pass it onto.

"its not a relay, keep going!"

posted by peenutkew # 17:20 0 comments

Saturday, December 19, 2009

i walked me to a corner,
cupping both ears with my palms,
pretending not to know, not to remember, not to hear.
refraining from saying, screaming, raging.
but i cannot not feel.

what do they want from us?
why does she spit in our path?
how do i go on from here?
where can i run, to you?

my hand is still with you, even though it is good as empty.

i have been waiting for you to get off the middle,

so i can leave this corner.

posted by peenutkew # 13:43 0 comments

with me

Thursday, December 17, 2009

come out and play.

posted by peenutkew # 16:24 0 comments

craze

Wednesday, December 09, 2009

it is extremely idiotic to wake up in the morning
remembering the repulsive things i said the night before,
and wishing i had chosen different words.

this has kept my hands from literally pulling your hair out from your head
and my heart still in your hands.

crazy, to be fighting about the same things for the last three years.
and crazy enough, to be passionate about the same thing for the last three years.

posted by peenutkew # 07:46 0 comments